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mum .. i can't take this anymore ..
its hurt me alot ..
please .. understand me ...
i need to be free ..
sakit sgat2 ..
tana agy daa .. hurrmmmp ...
i'm just like dead girl .... looking for the hope ..and wishing for my hope ...
searching for my wish ..but i can't make my wish ...
holding it ..??but ?holding to what ??